After my last entry I began thinking. It has been about a week and half since my vertigo started back up again. It took me days to remember to treat myself and today I needed to take a crowbar to move my ass to do it. Treatment takes about a minute or two and I feel better. So why this procrastination? It makes me wonder and worry. I know me. This means I am denying another part of my life. My little defects never stay compartmentalized. The slowly creep all over the place. So if I am forgetting to treat myself for the vertigo what else am I forgetting to do to take care of myself?
Years ago a friend in AA told me, "to follow an addiction is to believe a lie". I always liked this statement. What lies have a told myself to help deal with something. I remember how I use to be. LOL. I was telling myself a lot of lies to survive life. Ended up with a root canal from a tiny cavity that I kept forgetting to take care of. So I have some meditating to do on this.
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Physician........ Heal Thyself.............!!!!!!!!!!!!
I feel for you with regard to your vertigo. I too suffered from vertigo years ago. At times I fear it will come back and hope it will not. Mine was caused by a deep ear infection. To this day I can not enjoy Rides at the State Fair with my sons, for the motion makes me feel sick.
The statement you wrote "to follow an addiction is to believe a lie." Have not heard that one from AA, but I stopped going. I have a loved one who has an addiction. With those words it made me stop an think, I am following an addiction and believeing a lie.
take care of yourself but I must say I can be a big procrastinater myself. So I do understand.
Mike,
Hope you figure this all out. I'm sure you will. Good Luck! I really like that AA statement too. It really reaches out to me for some reason. Wonder why?
Love, Linda
Hope the meditating brings light. Take care of yourself! Pennie
It's too easy to push aside what we need to do to take care of ourselves. I'm glad you get that before it becomes a huge problem.
"to follow an addiction is to believe a lie" I never heard that before, a huge part of me doesnt want to admit thats true, but that must mean I have some changes to make.
I hope you feel better...
~ Jenny
Ahhh, procrastination... We all do that at times but when something is as painful as vertigo how could you delay treatment? Is this a form of non-sexual S&M?
It's always easier to do things from the start but why we always wait is beyond me!!! lol.... http://journals.aol.com/shayshaydc/Golfaholic
Sharon:)
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