Well I got up early to help the 3 year old boy in the house celebrate Christmas. It's his first with his parents separated. So we worked hard to make it a special one. It is special event to watch a small child rip into the presents. Overwhelmed by the colors, lights, and toys. I was grateful to be part of it. Since I could not be with my son this holiday I grateful to bring happiness to another boy's heart.
Well I just came up to my tree to open my presents from Santa. Some are still in the mail, but I opened the ones I had. Stealing a line from Tony Soprano, "I thought my head was going to explode." Sometimes the feelings are just painful. I am waiting till 11 to call my son and wish him a Merry Christmas. Also to make sure he knows why I don't see him on this holiday. Can't leave that up to my ex. I don't want him to even consider I don't care and I know if there are any blanks it will be filled with these negative thoughts.
Well so far my withdrawal symptoms seem a lot less this morning, but hey the day is young.
2 comments:
Oh, Mike .... this has to be tough for you. I'm hoping that you managed to have a nice day in spite of the circumstances. Bless you, Tina
Mike,
So sorry about your circumstances. I cannot begin to imagine, nor do I want to. My family is the reason I choose to go on breathing. I pray you had a nice day in spite of your circumstances. Thanks so much for visiting my journal and I have asked Hubby to put in the motion detectors. We also have lights that go all around the house, so I have been leaving them on at night since the peeper has been around a few times that I know of. I told my Hubby I thought the motion detectors would be better, then they would not have to burn all the time for nothing. My son has a journal called Insanities of a Misunderstood mind. His wife left him after she miscarried their first child. It has been a painful two years, both for him and us, as we loved our Jess very much. She broke all of our hearts, but especially his.
Love and prayers,
Susan
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