My Guide Rule

When I was growing up my Dad was pretty much my guide rule.  I didn't like most thing's he did so I didn't do them.  He smoked I don't smoke, he drank I don't, he use to get yell and get very angry and I didn't do that.  I think 2 out of three were okay, but on the last has caused problems through my life.  Stuffing the anger doesn't work as I have found out thirty years later.  I use to think it was great that I didn't get angry.  That we never argued in my marriage.  LOL. Boy was I wrong.  I know when I feel angry now I am usually feeling helpless in some area.  However it is still real easy to suppress the feelings still.  So I have to always be vigilant of how I am feeling which I know is a sign of emotional maturity.  The funny thing is once I know how I feel it is pretty easy to go from there.  That first step can still be tricky sometimes.