Cleaning My Dating Card

Talking to my friend Rosi today.  She gave me the low down on C over at her place.  At present she is dumping her boyfriend since he isn't Christian enough for her.  I'll take her name off my date card now.  No reason to even try.

June 4th

Hey it's only June 4th and I'm worrying about paying July's bills.  I just got finish paying last months bills by pulling stuff out of my ass to cover everything.  I won't be able to do that next month.  So fear is trying to get its grip on me.  I've done a fine job of getting its slimy claws of me, but it still leaves a mark.  Second job wise is pretty dismal so far.  Still no word from the two valet jobs.  I tried calling this morning for a part time teaching position for a medical biller.  I could do that.  Anyway trying to talk to anyone there about it ended up with me being transferred to 4 different people who didn't have a clue, being on hold for this side of eternity, and then being disconnected.  Hmm do I really want to work for this place?  Sad, but I do need the money so I will try again later. 

Talked to the ex last night which was weird.  She wanted to apologize for the weird call schedule last week with Eric and that her dad was in the hospital having surgery.  I was okay with it.  Just keep me in the loop.  I was also happy that she was making sure I was happy.  I've been screwed over too many times and I'm glad she knows I will be on her like a rabid dog if she tries anything ever again.

Sunday

Well I awoke with sex on the brain.  It took a long while before I realized it was Sunday morning and what that meant to my Pavlovian trained brain.  A little pain and a childish urge to last out also went through my head as the last wisp of sleep left me.

Since I am more free on the weekends now I headed over to the gym to get some cardio in.  It's been a while and I tried the elliptical for once.  Jeez is that thing uncomfortable as hell.  Give me the treadmill any time.  I had to hold on the whole time cause I figured I fall off the damn contraption.  It's been a while since I've had to run for valet so I figured I get it back.  Speaking of valet they had the auction yesterday for everything in the club.  I was thinking of going, but with a festival across the street and me no longer having a parking pass decided against it.

Did I Miss the Date?

Was yesterday don't wear a wedding ring day for women?  Did I miss it on the calendar.  Did the notice get sent to my spam box?

I wasn't trying to pick up any women yesterday, but reflexes die hard.  At out office block party, my co host's employee was flirting around with everyone.  She didn't have a ring I noticed.  Then as the party went on she ordered a burger for her husband that was on his way.  WTF?  Then later in the day I stopped in to order a sign for the office and one of the owners I know is married, I even talked to her husband that day, wasn't wearing her ring.  Again WTF? 

I mean I always hear the old story of the guy chucking his ring to hook up with someone.  However these women, I have encountered others, weren't wearing their rings with no intention as far as I could tell of picking up anyone.  If you are going to go through all the work of getting married and getting the ring.  Why aren't you going to wear it.  Maybe I'm just old fashioned.  When I was married the only time I took mine off was when I though I might damage it like if I was working on the car or something.  Besides that it was on 24/7.

Steppig into a Whole New World

I was sitting this morning meditating and praying like always and I realized over the past few weeks I have been asking for more new patients for the office.  Usually I'm more focused on personal qualities and growth, but I decided to add this in.  Couldn't hurt.  Lo and behold I have been getting more new patients.  My lesson to keep on striving for more.  Either lessons learned form early on about being unworthy or not wanting to be disappointed still dictate in the back of my mind what I reach for.  So here is an awareness to help move me up another level out of the pit of my soul.

Block Party

Well our Business block party went very well.  I made some good contacts and a possible patient or two.  It took a while to get going, but then everyone came and we even got the fire department from across the way to come. The best part is I got and Aflac doctor duck.  I'm in heaven.  Squeeze it and it screams Aflac!  I'm not quite sure what the damages are, but it should be worth it.  Many people want to pitch in next time so it should be really good.  Man am I hot.

I am Pavlov's Dog

The gibbering monkey part of my brain must still remember last night was Thursday.  I awoke in pain this morning with the loss of L.  I can only describe it as I felt hurt. Nothing more, nothing less.  After getting my food pellet every Thursday and Saturday for a few months I guess I have been conditioned.

We are having our first official block party at the executive park today.  I helped set up before and now I am awaiting a patient that I know is not coming.  However I will give her the official 10 minutes then I will call and leave her the message.  Why can't people just suck it up and call.