NOW THIS I LIKE

Sitting here having lunch today between seeing my lawyer to set up a trust for Eric since I don't trust my ex. I know she would use the money to pay for her life instead of it being Eric's. Then this afternoon I have leadership training.

Well I just got a call from CPA Girl. She just wanted to say hello and that she was thinking about me. Okay my day was just made and I'm on cloud 9. We also scheduled lunch for us Wednesday which will be very nice since it was going to be a long week until Friday. We'll talk tomorrow to finalize plans. Wow a proactive girl. I'm lovin' it.

The One

While driving tonight at work I was thinking of something German Girl said today. She said maybe she's the one. It must be a girl thing cause I've never thought of the one. Before marriage I have no idea what I was thinking. Now a days I date because I like how it challenges me to grow in areas that I can't do as a single. I know it might sound like I'm freaking out with my entries and sometimes I am, but usually I'm just trying to sort it all out. The women I pick usually have qualities that I like and want for myself. CPA girl loves life and is very focused. She has many other great qualities, but these stand out to me. So you know CPA girl is not a CPA. She is studying to be one. She was a realtor, but didn't like it. On finding numbers she fell in love with accounting and is trying to finish as soon as possible. So Tuesdays and Thursdays she is in class 1 - 10 pm. Plus classes scattered the rest of the week.

So we talked tonight and we'll see each other Friday and hopefully part of the day either Saturday or Sunday since I have to work those nights. I may give up salsa on Thursdays so I can take off Wednesdays to see her twice which will leave me 2 nights to salsa still. I don't want to give up my healthy stuff, but some give in take is necessary.

Thoughts

Talking to German Girl today. Since she wasn't born here she is my informant for everything across the pond. One of the things that was really frustrating me was CPA girls body language. To which German Girl states that American body language is different from the rest of the world. She related how she has many problems with people reading hers. What comes back to me is a guy I use to work for me married a Filipino woman. I remember him saying he didn't realize how much different the cultures were in small things.

I liked what Annie said as a comment in my last entry. Although I don't know if it will happen. CPA girl is driven and has herself on schedule to situate herself here. She wants to bring her mom over and start a family in the future. So to achieve those goals she is very diligent in her work. So she gives me different tidbits. Like she passed over the naked pictures of her the other night. She told me she'll save it for another time.

I'll bend on my side although I will not go backwards. If I'm important to her she will see she needs to bend too. Like all relationships it is the problem areas that will set the level of it.

Bummed

Well CPA girl called me this morning. She had to move back our date since she had to take care of a client. It was too late in the day for me since I was working the dinner shift. I could do it afterwards, but that was late for her. She suggested Wednesday, but I'm not quite sure of my schedule for the week. She did tell me that Monday, Tuesday, and Thursdays were bad for since she has review classes those days. I am awfully glad she came to salsa last Thursday then. The information is good since I can work any days I want at pizza. Just I didn't know before this week started. CPA Girl sounded really bad that we couldn't see each other. I told it was okay, but I dropped in to the peacekeeper mode and when I talk to her later let her know that I missed seeing her today. Since she is busy Thursdays I'll pass on asking her to the party.

So I went and did some errands. While out I found a pair of in line skates on sale cheap. So I picked them up. I've wanted to do so for a while, but I didn't want to do it by myself. CPA Girl loves to in line skate so she can teach me.

So now I have a few hours to blow and I think I will clean up my storage room at the office. It's getting bad in there.

And yes I did cross the line last night into a better world in my attitude with CPA girl. The song playing was Cinnkitty's "Na na na na, heh heh heh, goodbye ...". Farewell to an old part of myself.

A Question to You

A question to you all. This Thursday my business group is having a social get together where everyone is bringing their spouses and kids. We are growing as friend so it will be a nice time. My question to you all is do I ask CPA girl to go with me or is that too weird this early on?

The Line

I can't believe that I am already at this place with CPA Girl. We talked tonight and decided to get together tomorrow before I go to work. Since the weather is up in the air for tomorrow we decided to make a decision then on what to do. However when I hung up a nagging fear was there. I know she likes me, but do I dare truly believe it. For to do so opens me up to hurt if it doesn't work out. Realistically I know there is the possibility for incredible happiness here, but the fear of loss is there. It started in childhood with our many moves. Kids don't truly have the ability as adults to keep relations over distances with out assistance. Over and over I lost many a friend with our moves as I grew up. Then in post separation I have met a few women that I really liked, but it didn't work out. I guess it falls into the sphere of helplessness. I hate it. I was powerless to stop our moves and the end of my friendships as a child. As an adult I am powerless over another person's decisions. However I do know if I don't give it my all I greatly increase my chances of it not growing to fruition. I know I am smitten with CPA Girl so my fear is increased. I was surprised that I adopted my old mask last night on our date. I will have to be more aware of what is going on.

Saturday

I always enjoy the day after a good date. The sun is brighter, the day nicer, and I'm happier. It's a beautiful thing. The weather forecast for tomorrow is a mixed bag. It will rain at some time know one knows when. So I would like to actually do something and I know CPA girl is like me and likes action. It was funny last night to find out how much we have in common. Not the small stuff like I love reading and she doesn't, but our activity level is about the same. We both find our families as important, although she gets along with hers. I laughed when we both said how we have a fear of sharks in the water. I tell you it is a true enjoyment watching her enjoy life. I left her a message this morning for tomorrow so we'll see what happens. I know she would be with her friend today. We already have a large list of activities we want to do together. Their all out door stuff so now we just need time.

Jen over at My 33 People stated this today and it's what I've been looking for. As I get busier it is time consuming to check on every one's blog to see if they updated. So Google has a reader to tell you when someone makes a new entry.