I'm late...I'm late...I'm late

Well I don't think I have ever been more happy to have a patient reschedule as I am today.  Finally got the word to pick up my Mom.  So I am scrambling to order tickets, car reservations, make sure the place has all the papers finished, and the new place is ready to go.  So I am wound up.  As an old friend would say Mike you are going at warp 9 cause I am flying.  Trying to slow myself down since there is no reason to work myself up.  Also when I am going that fast I make more mistakes than anything. 

Thanks Becca for reminding me about the Monday Funnies.

Male Society

Surprising my son called me today.  Usually my ex has him stay to the 3 calls a week.  Even though he can call anytime.  Anyway after today's soccer game 2 separate boys called him names.  So he was angry and upset about the incident.  I was happy that he called to tell me about it and that he didn't think the names the boys called were true.  Ah the initiation into male society.  How far can a fight be?  I shared my history of being named called.  I use to hate it so much especially for having the last name "Vanella".  Surprisingly my Dad helped me with this issue.  He wasn't trying to, but I say him joking about the last name with people.  I guess seeing him not care made me not care so much about it. 

Sunday Thoughts

"If you get into a knife fight be prepared to get cut."

Over the last week I have talked to several people on fears of getting back into relationships after really bad ones.  My friends are usually surprised that I would want to get married again.  They knew how bad my marriage was and how I suffered. 

I know what a relationship can do.  A great person can help heal you of your childhood wounds as no one else can.  I remember a women (B) I dated last year.  I'm not quite sure if you read my other journal about how I was made to vomit as a child.  Anyway it has left me never eating everything on my plate.  B would make sure I always had a little extra to leave behind.  Such a simple gesture, but it was world altering for me.  However on the other side of the coin that person has the ability to rip those same wounds wider open and make a few new ones.  It's all a risk, but I think the benefits out way the risk.

Friday Night

Well it was a good night at valet.  These people need to teach others how to tip.  Please come back anytime.  The funny thing was it was like a Stepford wives party.  All the women were very attractive and dressed very nice.  The guys were just okay.  It was almost comical.

Using my money sorter again has helped a lot in the two days.  I have a bunch of bills already paid with some money for me to blow over the weekend. 

Still no word from my brother if we have the green light on our Mom.  Really a pain in the ass since I have a lot to take care of to make it happen next week.

It's a Crazy World

Well my Mom being discharged from the rehab has been moved up till next Friday.  I can't get down there any sooner.  So what I am suggesting since my Mom can't fly alone is to just fly down there and have my Aunt & Uncle bring her to the airport.  I'll get off grab her and fly back up.  Then later I'll go down and get her stuff and car.  Hopefully this will work. 

Having become a direct person I can't indirectness anymore.  It's like going through Alaska on your way to California from Virginia.  Just get to the FREAKING point. 

Oh well not much else to say.

Defect ~ Delayed Gratification

One thing with a non steady cash flow is that I go in and out of the this money starvation phases.  So when I get money I'm like what can I blow it on.  I want instant gratification.  So that is what I have dealt with all today. I went out and bought lunch instead of making it to treat myself.  However the money has to last for many things as well as to be able to do things over the weekend.  It's pretty interesting I just found my money organizer the other day.  It's just a coupon holder with my monthly bills for each of the pockets.  However it lets me keep track of what I need and what I can spend.  So I made it through today without buying my book.  Hopefully tomorrow will be easier.

Tired Thursday

Beat today.  Losing about a n hour a sleep a night.  So it is starting to get to me.  I know it's the stress of all my Mom's stuff.  Although I was able to start buying stuff for her today so I am feeling like things are starting to move along.

I had to keep my boundaries with my brother. He informed me that my Mom can be discharged next Friday.  I can't make it down there for another 9 days.  He started to object so I countered with if she could fly I would see if my Aunt & Uncle can put her on a plana and I would pick her up here.  Then I would still go down as planned to take care of whatever business needs to be done.  Having looked at all my stats for the last 2 years helped last night.  My business did really well the first year.  Didn't charge much and having someone else bill for me sucked.  The next year was bad due to the divorce and me focusing on my landladies business problems instead of my own.  Again focusing on my own business I am back to where I was before all this started.  I've worked too hard to get back here to just drop it for anyone else. 

Painful to leave a message for my ex last night, but I needed to take care of business and our son.  So we will see if she is able to produce the letters that stated Eric shouldn't fly.  I see that I will need to start making a greivance list again and take her back to court if this doesn't change.

Lastly my son said he wanted a baseball glove and I was happy to score one today at the thrift store.  So we can practice when he is down here.