Over the past week and a half I've been chatting with a new woman friend online. We've never met, but have chatted during our free time. We covered all the topics of gettiing to know each other. I was doing it for a freindship. However over time and a lot of fun I've become attracted to her. I remember the line from "When Harry Met Sally". Men and women can't be friends because the sex will always come up. I've had a lot of women friends over the years and they have been a great connection in my life. The sex thing has always come up in my head, but I've always pushed it off. However looking back I was always involved with someone during the time. This time I am free and looking.
Anyway over the last few days our flirtinig level has gone up. Till today we are talking about sex. I am far from a prude, but the half of my brain that still had blood in it knows it is not the smartest thing to do. A woman I have never met and we are connecting sexually. From past experience I know once this happens it is so hard to correct the relationship to something more meaningful.
I learned that from going out with this woman who I will label a seductress. The relationship was like a porno movie except we wore underwear. We never went out, we never talked, we just had sex. It was great until I realized that was all there was. The relationship had no where to grow. It changed me a lot. I was never a casual dater, but this really dropped it out of my vocabulary.
So my walk on the wild side today to most will seem harmless, but it is against my true desires. So I wonder will I pick up where I left next time.
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