I'm just world weary today. Tired of struggling, tired of working, tired of working on myself. Just tired. Not saying I am acting on any of it, but it is just where I am at. Tired of caring. Most likely I just need a vacation, but I don't see it happening anytime soon. While I do take every Sunday to relax and little bits through out the week I could use a chunk of away time.
At times it's a real workout at home with the dysfunctional folk. My landlord has his routines in his world and if they are disrupted he gets moody. Growing up like I did I really am sensitized to the people around me. So mood shifts put me on alert. It's a workout to remember that it has nothing to do with me since that is where I go first.
Now my female roomie is back. I haven't actually seen her since I moved in a month ago. We use to watch a few movies together when I was there before. I always felt she was very nervous around me. So it's a little extra tension in the room.
5 comments:
a female roomie? *grin* Mike..what r u getting yourself into? lol...first of all, if she felt she won't be comfortable around male as a roommate she should have seek a female one. :-)
Monday...whoever said it's the beginning of the week? I thought we could always start over when Monday comes..but noo...whatever time/day it is--it doesn't matter...when we feel not up to anything..it seems the feelings/emotions/thoughts always prevails. But then again..are we really gonna let this feelings control us?
I know..I remember..I had Mondays like this--more than too many times.
Hang in there, it is just Monday--there's the rest of the week ahead of 'ya!
Take care,
Gem :-)
Life is only as tense and as bad as you let it. Relax and try to have some fun friend! It can make the world of difference! Tammy
I hope the week gets better for you; its only Monday after all.
Maria
Mike, do you have any idea why there is tension with your roommate?
I know what you mean by being on alert for mood swings...In some ways it made a nurturer or a refined co-dependent but I dont do blood line loyalty anymore. If someone in my family is toxic, I see them during the holidays...
yah know techny brainers like to solve puzzles..I could never do your job...I wish I could but I'm the one who hides my kids toys that require batteries,lol...looking for the right screw driver is like being stuck in traffic,,,
-Raven
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She's a little bit nervous around you, and yet goes to movies with you sometimes? Is she afraid she'd like you-like you, or that you might feel that way about her? -- Robin
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