Well first off I had my exam this morning for my life insurance. It was very funny. The nurse took my blood pressure and it was 120/78 and she was like looks like no stress in your life. ROFLMAO! No stress, been waking up during the night this week with all my Mom's stuff going on.
Anyway I was talking with a patient yesterday and trying to help her with some of her survivor qualities from childhood that were causing problems in adult life. Then she asked me if I was angry with my parents. The answer was no even though I know there should be. I know I still haven't felt everything from that period of my life. A lot of it is just that it was everyday life and the other was I shut a lot down to survive it. If I put Eric back in that place in my mind I can be angry and offended, but for myself nah. However it did kick up a lot of anger in my dreams last night with my Mom and her old boyfriend that I got express in dream land. Also weird was Major my Dad's old dog was there. He was really old by the time I was born. I dreamed I wanted to play with him then I realized he was too old for my rough housing so I was gentle with him. Just weird.
2 comments:
Wow, so much symbolism, your mother old now so you're gentle even. Interesting to relook at just pieces of ones past. -- Robin
that's an interesting dream. Would be nice to be able to interpret it huh.
Take care,
Gem
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