Well I finally picked up my writing yesterday. Like most of my creative outlets my perfectionism runs deep. If it isn't perfect I can get very frustrated very fast and put it down. Why I must believe I must do everything perfectly is no mystery, but problematic. It is always about being lovable. So the war still rages on and it is still work, but I am grateful to know I can get past it. That I don't need to be able to jump to 60 mph in 2.5 seconds. That it takes time and practice to master anything. Don't really like that, but accepting it.
Anyhow I was grateful that I hadn't deleted all my writing stuff over the summer and was able to pick it up again yesterday and add more to it. I know I need my creative outlets for without them I can become stressed. However in the past I have used them to numb myself out. So now I am looking for a balance like everything else in my life.
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