"Man is the only animal that laughs and weeps; for he is the only animal that is stuck with the difference between what things are, and what the ought to be." ~ William Hazlitt
As I sit here on Christmas Eve by myself communicating with friends and keeping myself occupied. I wonder is this a merry holiday or not for me? Many people I know have offered there sympathies on my situation and I have thanked them for them. I can't say it is the best situation, but I will make the best of it. I could have seen family, but I doubt if I would have been happy. I could have seen my son, but I would rather have the 2 extra weeks during the summer than this one night. So like the rest of my life I make the best of the situation. I have enjoyed my day except for this stupid head pain (see today's other entry). I will continue to do so tonight and tomorrow. For I know if I can't enjoy myself I will never enjoy my time with someone else. It is an age old problem for me. Looking for others to fill up what is lacking in me. So I take these quiet times and use them to make myself a better person. That will always tell me if I should laugh or weep. Am I moving in the right direction. Self enlightenment or self indulgences. Looking to make things better or looking at something else so I don't have to look at myself. I am happy to say I don't know how things should be, but I do know where I am at the moment. That is all I need right now. I will get to where I am going.
1 comment:
I think you will, Mike:) Positive push while introspecting..... Hope it was a Merry Christmas. Hard to be away from ones child, but right, 2 weeks this summer instead! -- Robin
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