Wednesday

Well it wasn't Death knocking on my door this afternoon, but his brother Financial Problems.  Who I think is worse.  Death just comes and it's over. His brother on the other hand hangs around so that you pray for his brother to come a knocking.  Got a letter for people wanting there money.  It always strikes me hard and it is a real workout not to freeze in my tracks and just panic.  I had helped some friends a few weeks ago with letting stuff go and it came back to me.  I couldn't do anything to change the situation.  If I could I would have done so yesterday.  So all I can do is keep doing my best and work for some solutions.  None of which are coming soon which is the painful part.  I tell you I've been behind the 8 ball since I have been down here.  Glad I love the place.  Part of me wants to rage at my ex since this started with her taking the money when she left and leaving me less than nothing.  Looking back I have survived to this point.  Not great, but I haven't missed a meal or lived in the woods yet which has been options is the past 2 1/2 years. So I do count my blessings.