Ran into my old office manager like I do about once a month. We caught up on our lives and she gave me a kiss on the cheek on the way out. I am always attracted to her, but I know it's in bad way. She is such a troubled person and always needs help. So any advice I give her she appreciates so much. There it is. That right there makes me FEEL SO GOOD. Here it is a sick set up for me to feel good instead of working on myself to feel good. It's my age old trap that I have stepped in so many times in my life. Grabbing people who need help so I can help them so that they will like me. So life is again giving me enough rope to either learn something and move on or hang myself like usual. Glad I talked it out so hopefully I can move on.
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Mike, we are all going through the same kinds of thoughts and feelings, especially those of us who are single/divorced. It isn't easy.. It will get better for you... I promise.. :)
Jackie
Glad you talked yourself through that one...it's not easy when there's that temptation you know is so wrong for you and so hard to resist. Keep talking ~ it'll make you stronger. Hang in there!!
Michele
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good for you, plus with age you'll find out it get's easier to do things right.
This makes complete sense to me. I love the feeling that comes with helping someone out, but you are right. As far as a relationship goes, it isn't the best situation. Sounds like you are following your instincts ... good for you. Tina
Mike,
Very interesting concept you have going here. Seriously, I do hope it helps you move one and please don't use that rope to hang yourself! I'd just miss you too dang much! lol
Love, Linda
I used to be that person, too. There's a precarious balance between the two. You'll find it...you're aware. ;) C. http://journals.aol.com/gdireneoe/thedailies
This entry reminded me of a friend of mine...He gets himself all involved in these women`s problems who are really messed up. That seems to be the attraction for him - to try and help them. It doesn`t usually end well for him either.
I`m not comparing the two of you, it`s just that what you said so reminded me of him.
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Ya know what they say, birds of feather flock together lol helping is fine but helping yourself is better!!
I haven't visited your journal in awhile...but this entry spoke to me, as most of yours do.....I'm happy that you wrote it. My newest entry is similar....it's scary how we can get into that mindset. The hardest work I've ever done....and I've done a lot of hard work in my life....is the work that I've done on myself. It's extremely satisfying, though...when you start to realize that your work is paying off. It usually happens when you're not looking; as most important things do. I think that's the lovely part of life....the wonder and surprise of it all, really. You're doin great and you're pretty damned cool, if I say so myself. Ya bring a lot to the table, Mike. Thanks for the insights.
Tracy
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