Wednesday, January 25, 2006
Not Looking Foward to It
Been fretting with this for about a week now. Next week I will tell my landlord I will be moving out at the end of February. I don't mind the move. I mind the pain that I am going to go through when I see his pain. It usually is a household of women there so I know it is nice for him to have a guy there. I enjoy our talks and I have learned a lot on recycling food. Have to admit it had been best family home I have had in a long while. So I will miss that. However my codependancy is flaring with this upcoming talk. Reality is that I know we can get together for dinner every once in a while like I do with friends. I know it is that he is an older guy that doesn't know how to deal with his emotions and I am care taking. My old nemesis. So I am just letting it go since I know it is not my place to take care of him. I know in my life it has always been pain that has made me move onto bigger and better things. I have no right to prevent anyone else from doing so.
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Care taking, feeling responsible for others emotions is one of the biggest traps I think we all fall into, I know I've stood in that scenario for longer then I care to admit. I think it's great that your doing what you feel is right for yourself. I don't see that as a selfish move, but a self appreciating and postive move.
Wishing you well,
Rebecca
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