Well I have felt kind of dry with what to write the last few days. This morning I think I have too much to say. So sit, relax, and let me drain my brain.
1) Woke up this morning and had thoughts like Jenny. I was alone and thought how nice it would be to have someone with me. So I applied if I think my neighbors grass looks greener I better water mine. So I thought of all the things I am grateful for being single. Hey I can focus on myself and don't have to share with anyone else. Most of the things I thought were on the selfish side, but this is the time for it. It's all about me. Then when I decide to go back out there I'll be a more exciting person than I already am.
2) A friend asked me about anger yesterday as he starts his spiritual growth. For me anger was a bad thing. I saw my parents in it especially my Dad and I never wanted that. So I either swallowed it all or short circuited the emotion before it went anyplace. Now a days I can display it appropriately, but it is still an exercise to just let it happen. However I found myself dreaming last night again a teenager and trying to verbalize my anger to my Mom's boyfriend. There I was again like many of my lifelong dreams unable to act. Although I was able to get a whisper out which is better than normal. Well it shows me where the work still needs to be done.
3) Jeez I forgot already. Must be getting old. Oh well it will have to wait for another entry.
2 comments:
Well, if this is what comes spilling out when you "drain your brain" I think you should drain more often lol
It must have been something in the air last night/this morning. Some days are easier than others. There are good things about being alone, like my toilet seat is always down : )
~ Jenny
I think you and Jenny should hook up!!!!
Terra
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